To much on my mind.......

I've so much on my mind, stuff I don't want to talk about or even think about the only thing that keeps me going most days are my amazing sons, I really don't know what i'd be with out them little munchkins in my life. I feel totally drained all I do is clean even when the house is clean! I can't wind down most nights till about 3am :( I love my sleep always have :( don't even get me started about my moods are like a roller-coaster up down & around, I'm starting to feel so down about my body tho I eat constantly as a comfort haven't the will power to work out & when I do I be in the worst pain ever after :(

I just wanna feel normal is that so hard to ask!!!!